Hi wild ones 💙✨
I am certainly no one special but sometimes I appear to be lucky enough to experience little heart nuggets (we all do) and I am always grateful,frankly quite fascinated when I hear about others ways to get through darkness, finding keys on their way to happiness. By telling our stories we share our internal maps to greater good. That’s why I’d like to contribute by sharing some wild inner adventures, when by chance something precious happen to me, hoping that will resonate with you. Who knows?
How does it feels like when you let the divine work with you?
A few weeks before my first woman's circIe ever, I am in a panic. “I have no experience of circles as a leader, I have no idea what I am doing”, I thought. I lose it when I start to physically create my sacred space. I judge it to be “un-inspiring” and “ugly”. I feel like a child showing an ugly pasta-necklace to my parents and asking if it is pretty! All these thoughts are like lava poured into my beings, burning and taking up all the space. As I feel entirely defeated on the floor with my “pasta necklace sacred space” I hear a voice : Let it go, it’s too late now. Come back to it later”. So I listen, stop the fight and go to bed.
A few days later, having reflected on the situation, I am very aware I don’t want to let my inner critic get in the way of a project so dear to my heart. So I begin the process again. But the same thing happens, with the same intensity. I just want to drop everything. Cancel the circle. I can’t do it. But instead I let myself embrace that idea COMPLETELY, I don’t resist it, I sit in the chaos, draw my attention inside, hear the silence in my being without expectation.... and this is when it gets juicy.
In this complete surrender of brain control, in the silence I think” I drop everything and start from zero.
If there is nothing, where do I want to start?”
I feel: “Well I actually really want to offer a sacred place, a magic and safe zone where people can drop their burden and discover opportunities to heal, to be surprised, to be themselves...” And from this vulnerable place inside me, having dropped any brain control, everything starts to be in motion again: A beautiful pale pink scarf in my drawer caught my eye. It’s going to be the centre of the circle! Then in 5 minutes of highly joyful energy, arranging things on the scarf -completely in tunes with my inner divinity, everything came together… perfectly displayed... in only 5 minutes! So almost fair to say, instantaneously…
After that I felt quite confident that if I listened to my inner guidance, nothing could really go wrong. Yes I didn't have huge experience as a leader, but I had experience in surrender, in being authentic, in seeing others beauty… and that was enough. I thought:"You have everything you need and so you can do something before you are ready, or more precisely, before you think you are ready!"
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Whatever you are creating, your art, your job, your life, if like me you have intense thoughts & strong brain control, drop that energy at your feet and let the divine lead you from your heart, from your whole body. It will transmute that energy into something much bigger, wiser, and beneficial than anything you can ever create. Pain free.
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